regret

each of us are given 24hours per day in our life. it is how we manage it that is maters. as for me, i sometimes manage it efficiently but most of the time, i just waste it...

time is always moving forwards. but we, human, dont always move forwards. at times, we even moving backwards. in other words, we are not just didnt achieve anything but also we bring harm or something unnecessary to ourselves.

in my life, i always turned two persons down.. one is a boy and another one is a girl. i didnt realised how they feel until just now, i think back what i've always did on them... it must be upsetting when u hope he wud befriended with you but in the end, he keeps on turning away from you... i regret my past and i feel sorry for myself. why cant i just keep cheering them up?



time heals everything, but hopefully in a way that we want it to be...


P.S: mode --> ape ape je lah rasyiiid

Kuasa Tuhan

"Kadang kadang, kite xkan dapat ape yg dipinta"

setelah hampir berputus asa utk cari ayat ni, akhirnye jumpe gak.. alhamdulillah...

as i mentioned kat atas tu, "Kadang kadang, kite xkan dapat ape yg dipinta". yeah, it have had happened to me and i'm pretty sure u guys pun pernah experience it gak. Allah pernah berfirman:

“….. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” (QS: 2 - Al Baqarah : 216)

a brief example, kamu malas untuk keluarkan zakat harta (bagi yg cukup syarat), padahal ia amat baik untukmu (i.e dgn zakat, dapat mensucikan diri. dgn berzakat, ramai org laen akan dapat manfaat. dgn zakat, kamu free2 je dapat tiket to syurga dan payung pada hari kiamat yg panas. dan dengan zakat, kamu akan dapat pahala yg jikalau kamu dapat convert to australian dollars, kamu mesti xharapkan MARA bagi elaun tiap2 bulan dan Nabil dah boley kawen da pon July ni)...

and another example for the last clause of the ayat: kamu suke cakap xhenti2 pasal org laen, padahal ia amat buruk untuk diri kamu.. kerna, dgn bercakap ikut sesuke ati, free2 je pahala yg dikumpul tu jadi licin. dgn bercakap sesuke ati, there'll be some possibility to hurt that person. dgn bercakap sesuke ati, lame2 org pon malas nak dengar ape yg kamu cakapkan tu... (tapi yg ironi nyer, dgn bercakap sesuke ati, kamu boley tolong org yg kamu tgh bahan tu dapat pahala free2..ahaha)

fikir fikirkan lah




apepon, aku stil xngantuk lagi, perot da lapaaa, si dia da tido, lab report xsiap lagi, rase cam nak kuar amek gambo waktu subuh ni tapi sejuk la plak kat luo tu, kete pon asyik meragam je.


ape ape je lah rasyiiiid

2 months later..in Gippsland

when i laid back, take a deep breath and think what had happened since i arrived here, this is what i found:

• i miss my sayang
• i miss my family
• i miss kedai mamak..
• and i miss McD and Italiannies!!
  

BUT, despite all that:

• i'm adapting to a new environment
• i'm enjoying myself as much as possible
• i cud meet new people! (the PhD families!!!)
• i'm learning to stand by my own feet

its cool man! yknow why? this is an opportunity given by God to me. there must be something that He want me to achieve in this 2 years time. there must be something in future taht require me to go this far. i dono what it is either, dont ask me, ask God. but, whatever it is, i'm glad to be here, and i'm ready for the next challenge ahead.. so bring it on! YOSH!!

quote for yesterday

"Remember the picture is not important,
Remember what it means, is important"

(Phillip BC 2009)